.loveRED.

i think it's time...

2011-04-02T00:00:00.000+08:00

just now look through ur page...
all of a sudden it strike me..
that we are not from the same standing...
reality strike me and i think it's time...
i don't really want to worry about you..
from day to night...
and from night to day...
for the things that you are doing...

p.s. i do love u... but i love myself more..

2011-03-27T14:29:00.001+08:00

maybe is just not worth it being together.

The Rabbit year has arrived!!!

2011-02-03T00:47:00.002+08:00

Happy chinese new year everyone!!! HUAT ARR!!

show off!!

2011-01-31T20:55:00.000+08:00

first of all,i da nampak ur attitude ok since the first time i have event ngan u... i tau la u penah keje kat situ but x yah la nak show off sgt ok? i tau skunk u r important in that dept. but i tau some of the things u exaggerate it to show off at me... pls i'm not stupid ok? biar pon u all panggey i kiddo but i think i'm more matured than u kot.. well apa-apa je la.. nak show off sgt... show laaa... i can accept all ur stories... no problem...

I knew it!

2011-01-25T19:46:00.000+08:00

I knew this was coming.... Argued for 2-3 days in a row??? Sigh! Really tired of arguing.. Both of us are tired... Damn tired... Well, I guess most of the argument is because of me.... You are awesome babe! It was me... The spoiler.. The notorious.... Yea, I know I'm bad... Hope these things resolve soon!!

2011

2011-01-22T23:28:00.000+08:00

the last post were in October... so I've been away for 3 monthsss... updatesss for Nov and Dec... had my internship in New Straits Times Press... well it was AWESOME!!!! damn i fell in love with the job... cause i get to attend events which some ppl dont get to attend lor.. eg: Fashion Festival KL, the VIP was The Permaisuri Agong ok??? i met her in life man!!! so tell me about it... in NSTP for 2 months... met funny ppl in there... hope to be back for my other internship.. Now updatesssss for Jan... so yea, 2011 is in da house!! well i think this year is not a very good year for me.. at the beginning of the year i can feel that im having bad luck this year... i knocked my head twice in a single day... and the "feeling" is back!! its not a good thing though... haihzzz... really hope the "feeling" will disappear soon... HOPE YOU PPL OUT THERE HAVE A AWESOME YEAR!!!!!!!

Charity:Water

2010-10-20T20:10:00.000+08:00

Today I had just clicked on video in Facebook which made me feel that I am so lucky that I have clean water for me to take bath and drink, electricity for me to online, car for me to drive around, money for me to buy anything I want and all the love I get from people around me. This video is about a guy who help thousands of people in Kenya and Ethiopia to get clean water to use and drink. In the video, he mention that about 100 people visit the hospital in Kenya to see the doctors, they will not get to use clean water. Now they are raising for more money to help people around the world to have clean water in their daily life. Click Charity:Water to check out about the charity I'm talking about. I hope for those who have a blog, PLEASE do spread about this charity. I hope by just blogging, I can help those people who have never drink clean water before. When I'm capable I will donate to this charity for a good cause. Please spread around!

dilemma

2010-10-11T22:07:00.000+08:00

in a dilemma currently...

should we just be best frens??

or should we continue arguing like this??

well, its my fault...

im really the biggest "loser" in this relationship...

tried to be selfish but i can't stand seeing you like that...

tried to change but my stubborness is too stubborn...

tried to give in but giving in hurts me...

tried to leave but leaving hurts me more...

well i can't stand anything which is a bit challenging...

when comes to this...

what should i do so that both of us could be happy??

2010-09-07T23:28:00.001+08:00

i want to go SHOPPING!~

2nd year anniversary pressie =D

2010-09-01T23:19:00.000+08:00

after 10 days without meeting my teddy bear...

today is the first day we met after sem break...

then he gave me a surprise...

by giving me a perfume for our 2nd anniversary...

thank u babe!!

really love it!!

♥

to my beloved mr teddy bear...

2010-08-19T19:40:00.000+08:00

mr teddy bear..

i wanna say that i love you...

and will support u no matter wat happens k?

i will be there for you...

even though we are far apart or anything...

just want u to know that...

i'm here for u =)

♥

back in time..

2010-08-03T17:13:00.001+08:00

i wish i could turn back the time.

without knowing anything.

without arguments.

we would be a happy couple.

sorry for everything.

2010-07-28T22:54:00.000+08:00

I'm very disappointed with you!

You should know who you are!
If you really don't know that I'm talking about you..
then you really don't care much about US anymore!

bored

2010-07-25T00:17:00.000+08:00

should be doing my assignments.

end up.

blogging.

felt so stress.

and lonely.

well.

nobody to talk to.

nobody to make me laugh.

even though i have a bf.

things are the same.

i feel so pathetic.

each time hoping for the same thing.

but it won't happen.

i guess.

not hoping for more.

its just 1 simple thing.

pls do bring happiness into my life.

cause i felt im not happy.

update!!~

2010-07-16T23:16:00.000+08:00

sorry guys...

been bz for awhile...

and life in deg year 2 IS NOT EASY!!!

this is my very first sem in my 2nd year..

have to be more independent..

have to search more info for term paper...

have to work more harder...

OH GOD!!!!

i need to adapt, adapt, adapt and ADAPT!!!

ok enough of uni life...

at home pulak...

my sis just started her online boutique biz with her partner...

so i need to be their part-time-wanna-be-photographer..

well.. this is the first time i take pics of human...

human who stand still and posing!

it's a good experience though...

oh yea! the company name is Matches Haus!

so click that to check out their products

and do comment on my skills..

hoping to improve...

so now sem break plans!!

yea i know...

haven't yet finals...

well, i don't care....!!

all i care is to travel!!!!!!

so yea, sem break on 21st-23rd of august...

i'm going to PENANG!!!

my mom craves to go to PENANG!!!

cause she said it has been sooooooooo long...

and my dad said he wants to come along...

so my eldest sis is going to drive up all the way...

and 5 of us is gonna cramp in that Vios..

and then on 28th-31st of august...

i'm going to VIETNAM!!!

here i come HO CHI MINH CITY!!!!

huhu!! gonna travel there with my family and my aunts..

my 2nd aunt and my youngest aunt..

my mom's sisters...

so huhu!!!!

i can't wait to see around..

hope it won't be like Indonesia though...

that is sooooo scary..

that a longgggg update right??

have to....

well gonna be M.I.A for awhile again...

cause i need to finish up alllllll my assignments...

after that i'm gonna try to start to prepare for my FINALS!!

so yea, see you all around!!!

Quote of the day

"Appreciate of what you have around you, imagine those people who needs to "fight" for their food, shelter, clothing and LIFE!~"

guilty

2010-06-30T20:34:00.000+08:00

am i doing the right thing??

am i doing the wrong thing??

oh yes!!

2010-06-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

oh yes!! because tmrw my camera will be back into my hands!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

can't wait to see my souvenir from USA...

huhu!!!!

planning to buy a MP3 or MP4..

dont need Apple...

cause its over my budget...

y i wanna buy mp3 or mp4??

cause my stupid memory card in my hp sudah corrupted....

i didnt do anything to it also...

KNS!!!

so yea, planning to go to low yat to check it out =)

Mizz Nina feat.Colby O'Donis - What you waiting for [ Official Music Vid...

2010-06-01T23:05:00.000+08:00

I LOVE THIS SONG!!!

photoscape!!

2010-05-30T21:17:00.000+08:00

I can't take nice pictures...

so yea, now I learn to edit them..

with...

PHOTOSCAPE!!!!

how's my editing???

6th june

2010-05-30T17:45:00.000+08:00

on that date..

both of my sisters will be back in KL~

oh i cant wait to see my camera, and of cause my gifts...

ah... how good if i can follow them to overseas...

its been a while that i didnt get out from KL...

so stresss upppp!!!

i hope this coming sem break i can follow SSLAA sem break trip...

harap-harap boleh la....

i cant wait to go holiday!!!

RELAX babeh!!!!~

camera

2010-05-26T22:16:00.000+08:00

few weeks ago i bought my very first camera...

i only can afford a compact camera...

actually i can buy Canon EOS D1000..

but the functions are too basic,,,

so i bought Lumix LX3..

previously i posted about shud i get the cam..

then i was survey-ing in low yat plaza...

and they have this promotion...

i just have to pay for the camera's money which cost rm 1599..

then i get a free leather case and 4gb SD card...

then the promoter counts everything..

and actually all the stuffs cost rm 2199..

so yea, im glad that i bought that camera..

i cant manage to use it before it follows my sis to U.S.

cant wait for them to come back = D

new page...!!!

2010-05-24T19:46:00.000+08:00

hey...

so what do u think about the new look??

nice?? ugly??

for me its quite cool...

well that's my "style"..

thanks to ShabbyBlogs!!!!

*applause*

so yea, i added new header, background, and link to fb...

i've change my blog name to THE NOTORIOUS...

so what is notorious??

notorious means infamous..

yea im infamous..

that's y i think it suits me...

so do check out SHABBYBLOGS!!

see cool things there =)

Iphone

2010-04-28T14:43:00.000+08:00

my sis said she will buy me an Iphone if my results is good..

oh my... my results.... [I think i wont get the Iphone then]

i knew her sooo well..

even though my results ain't that good..

i think she will buy it for me..

but.....

there are consequences...

if she really buy an Iphone for me...

FOR SURE!! we will be scolded by our mom...

if she didn't buy it...

ahhhhh, nice... no nag n scold...

and i did mention that ask her to buy my favorite cammy for me...

LUMIX LX3..

yes im falling in love with that cammy even though i haven't buy it...

btw, back to Iphone..

she said if i wanted to buy that camera go ask mom..

i was like... wat?? u rather buy an Iphone for me than a camera???

camera!

2010-04-27T12:25:00.000+08:00

i planned to buy a camera...

which is Lumix LX3..

because the body is quite vintage...

andddd pretty n nice pictures..

does it look vintage??

2010-04-24T23:00:00.000+08:00

thought of reading your blog today...
to catch up with your updates...
i thought of giving you guys another chance...
but i found that you have blocked me from reading your blog..
i don't understand why you want to do that...
i don't understand why you don't have the guts to tell out how you felt about us or me...
why you have changed???
or is it me???
did i do something wrong that you really want cut this friendship off??
is it me or what??
i can tell you that i'm not blind...
i guess you guys just blocked me even in msn...
if you have something that you feels emm song with me...
COME RIGHT TO MY FACE AND SAY YOU HATE ME OR SOMETHING...
don't just keep quiet and missing in action...
i was hoping to pull this friendship again...
i was hoping to hang out like we used to be...
i really need some explanation...
or is it what they said is true??
you are jealous of me sending him home??
i really need to know all that...
i wanted to know all that...
whether is true or not....
i won't trust all that except you explain to me....
even you lied to me, i will believe it...
we have the same character...
but why??
why we are like this???

last paper

2010-04-20T00:28:00.000+08:00

oh yes i cant wait for my last paper on wednesday!!!

omg!! this sem is sooooo freaking stressful..

dont believe me?? i've been losing control this sem..

beginning of the sem was like toooooooooo relaxing..

after mid term examination, i was rushing like mad for assignments...

after that, preparing for finals...

oh god!! i really need to get out of here...

and relax.. i really need a quiet place [beach] to relax...

i miss beach... i miss the sand.. i miss the sea....

i just miss being relax..

one week holiday then new sem opens...

yea im in year 2 for my degree..

i cant wait to finish...

and earn my very first gold....

first gold?? hehe no la first salary..

by hard work to earn money...

when i buy my own stuff i will feel its worth every cent...

i miss working life...

kinda.... even though i have a bad experience in tokio....

i will never forget that few months in that insurance company...

but the best thing is money..

especially when u need those money to buy the stuff that u like..

im hoping to work any part time job..

cause my timetable for next semester suckish....

mon, wed n friday start class during the evening..

yea so i planned to work as part time..

but i dont think its gonna work since my mom love to object my ideas...

i really need money...

wanted to buy a lot of stuff...

especially my LUMIX LX 3..

i wish i can have that...

then i can take awesome pictures xD

was planning a year end trip to Hong Kong..

so now im saving like shit...

i wish i was born in a rich family where i can have anything i want..

but i didnt say im not happy now....

im thankful for have a car, a comfy house, a great family except some body in the family...

im thankful for having good frens, and a good boyfriend..

THANK U FOR YOUR SUPPORT

no matter who u r!!!!~

p.s.: i have included some words with different font size to emphasize the important idea of each lines. tq. [in discourse analysis: emphasizers are use to attract attention and to show importance]

my 100th post

2010-04-17T10:55:00.000+08:00

yesterday i have celebrated my 20th birthday..

i had a lot of fun with few of my friends...

around noon we went to watch movie in midvalley...

around 4 something the movie is over we walked around...

after we left around 5 something or 6..

then we went to eat at fish's bro's restaurant...

well its quite worth it rm 23.80 per pax..

all you can eat....

the varieties are not bad cause compare to telephone restaurant..

here got much more varieties....

they have abalone, scallops, prawns and etc...

then here comes the cake.. i went into the toilet...

when i wanted to blow the cake my head was pusheedddd on to the cake...

yea..... on to the cake...

had a really great time with them..

thanks Calvin, Yeeyin, Chinee, Peng and Panda...

thank u so much!!!!

our next mission....

14th June =D

us

2010-04-09T20:57:00.000+08:00

what happen to 3 of us??

it seems like we are strangers..

is it my fault??

did i do anything wrong??

did she do anything wrong??

or is it u r the one who wanna be alone with him?

i really wanted to know the answer..

but it seems like people surround me do not let me to do so..

why??

i can't accept that the fact look at your face like that...

i cherish you..

and believe that we will be friends forever..

but now i don't think it is gonna happen..

in reality, 3 of us has minus to 2 of us..

i hope this friendship will go on....

cause i do cherish u..

me & you

2010-04-07T16:00:00.000+08:00

we came from different background

we came from different religion

we came from different life

but

you have done something

so that i attracted to you

your character

your style

your humor

your love

these are the few things that you made me

fell in love with you

within this one year plus

there are ups and downs between us

sadness

happiness

craziness

you never left me

or ask me to face it alone

you are a great companion!!

even though once you did some mistake

but now have change a lot!!

anything that i don't like

you tried to change it

thank you for changing

thank you for everything

THANK YOU MY DEAR!!

love

2010-04-05T17:11:00.000+08:00

was driving just now

and suddenly think of love

all of us need love

but why we have to "pay" or "help" in any form

to the person who loves us??

i wanna go back!

2010-04-04T21:08:00.001+08:00

i wanna go home where i should belong

this is not my home

pls bring me out of here

we

2010-03-17T21:39:00.000+08:00

we were having prob last few days...
arguing...
moody....
n dont even want to talk to each other...
luckily i've met u today....
we told everything that kept in our heart...
oh my...
was crying like shit...
when we talk about miko again...
haih...
wish she didnt appear in our life..
then we wont be like this...
btw..
i love u baby..

leaving silently

2010-03-13T19:25:00.001+08:00

i guess u dont need me to be in ur life anymore...

go to ur frens then..

bye

....

2010-03-12T23:15:00.000+08:00

tak tau nape la..

tetiba nak tulis dlm bm..

erm...

ntah ar nape mlm ni emo plak...

korg jgn ar tanye aku nape...

sbb aku pon x tau nape...

bnyk sgt benda yg blaku kot..

class project ade gado2..

kawan2 da lame x jumpe...

pakwe lak...

erm die ok je..

aku ni je yg slalu majuk..

ntah ar nape..

nape ar aku ni manje sgt..

adoyyyy..

susah btol ar...

sem ni mmg mcm gila ar...

bnyk giler bnde kena wat...

adoi!!!!

ntah ar nape sem ni mcm mls sesgt nak blaja...

harap2 result ok la...

jgn plak ade fail...

adoi aku x sabar ar nak gi cuti2..

x kesah ar dlm or luar m'sia..

janji jauh dari kl...

bosan siot tiap2 ari kat KL..

nak gi sunway...

ade plak bnyk sgt alasan...

ish...

penat ar...

time raye cine pon kat KL...

x leh belah arrrr...

update!!~

2010-03-11T23:44:00.000+08:00

my life in this semester been very very busy...

club have events...

luncheon n clubs week....

intravarsity [bz body only la]...

during the first half of the sem...

actually im quite free...

for the second half of the sem..

im starting to be very buzy...

cause i took english literature class...

where the whole class have to act in this drama project..

research papers....

loads of assignments...

midterms...

test...

oh god....

very hectic laaa

du lan!

2010-01-20T23:00:00.000+08:00

yes ppl i know i have short tempered..
at least when u ask ppl to do things ar ur *ducked up tone b nicer can??
im not ur servant or i MUST help u to do things...
plz think of ppl feelings la...
wat i hate is ppl who needs my help and then sound like is a must to help...
who do u think u are wo??
i got no manners???
just say anything u wan..
whenever u need bigger help from me i will give u the attitude u treat me..
i will never forget how u treat me...
*DUCK OFF LA!!!

*d change to F

because of u

2010-01-16T19:51:00.000+08:00

because of u,

i was born.

because of u,

i never felt its a happy family.

because of u,

everyone would cry.

because of u,

she wasnt a happy woman.

because of u,

we arent a happy child.

because of u,

we hate this family.

because of u,

i stayed strong to protect her.

because of u,

i learned to revenge.

because of u

are my father.

because of u,

mom never wants me to do that.

because of u,

she had sacrifies too much.

everything is because of u....

2nd week of the new sem

2010-01-14T20:23:00.000+08:00

this week was abit tiring...

everything start to get serious...

my first assignment after 2 months break!!

my brain is totally still in holiday mood..

then fun thing is i can see my frens around!!

this sem i took english literature!!

got drama laaa!!

have to act..

haha i cant wait =D

after old man is back LOL

2010-01-08T22:39:00.000+08:00

ah fish told me to update my blog...

after old man is back...

so uni started already..

bz with class...

class schedule is packed!!

im quite bz this semester...

so i will update soon =D

12th day

2010-01-03T22:40:00.000+08:00

at last u r coming back tomorrow..

i cant wait to meet u...

hug and cry in front of u...

hahahahaha...

i wanna spend some time with u...

after almost 2 weeks we didnt meet...

even though we have a slight arguement these few days..

i hope that our relationship will get stronger...

A note to God [admire Charice's voice]

2010-01-02T23:04:00.001+08:00

If I wrote a Note to God
I would speak what’s in my soul
I’d ask for all the hate to be swept away,
For LOVE to overflow

If I wrote a note to God
I’d pour my heart out on each page
I’d ask for war to end
And For Peace to mend this world
I’d Say, I’d Say, I’d Say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love because love is over due
And it seems like so much is going wrong
On this road we’re on.

If I wrote a note to God
I’d say please help us find a way
End all the bitterness
Put some tenderness in our hearts
And I’d Say, I’d Say, I’d Say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love because love is over due
And it looks like we haven’t got a clue
Need some help from you

Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is going wrong
On this road we’re on

No, no….
We can’t do this on our Own

So So…

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love because love is over due
And it looks like we haven’t got a clue
Need some help from you

Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is going wrong
On this road we’re on

No No
We cant do this on our own
So So

If I wrote a note to God

a frenship of mine

2010-01-02T20:47:00.000+08:00

before it happened..

i thought i knew who u are...

i thought i understand u..

i thought that i'm the one..

she was just a fren...

i can feel that we were very close..

we were the so-called-bestfren..

since then...

i never knew who u are...

i dont know what are u thinking...

i know that i'm not the one..

she was more than a fren..

she was a best fren to u..

i can feel the gap between us..

we were just frens..

yes a normal fren..

i hope that u are happy with her...

i hope that u had a great time with her...

i hope that u had a great frenship with her..

i guess im backing off...

i guess we were not like we used to be..

i guess u never treat me as ur bestfren....

i guess im just ur "float"..

i will be here if u need me...

i will be listening to all ur problems..

i will try to help u to solve ur problems..

10th & 11th day

2010-01-02T20:01:00.000+08:00

yesterday and today my family and i went to mv...

for shoopppinngg...

even though its 1 more month for CNY..

but we went to buy stuff now..

yesterday around 9 something..

my sis and i played mahjong..

hahaha toooo bored..

so we played mahjong..

around 10 something i gave my mom to play...

then around 12 i went to sleep...

it was a tiring day...

then i dreamt about transformer..

hahahahah....

today after shoopppinggg...

i have to accompany my sis...

to her house cause kakak is there to clean her house...

then we talkkkkeeeeddd a looottt...

since we step into the house until we are going off..

talk about him & him..

how they react..

how they talked..

what is their character...

after that we reached home..

online.. nothing to do...

then just a few minutes ago...

just finish arguing with him..

about fiona...

adoyy..

i dont know y am i so jealous...

mayb im scared the same thing will happen again...

how can i forget about it??

how can i trust him like i used to??

how can we be like last time??

how can i stopped being so selfish??

yes ppl im being selfish...

cause i did pull back myself alot from this relationship..

im sorry...

just dont wan to be hurt again...

i still love and miss u...

9th day without u

2009-12-31T22:07:00.000+08:00

today is the last day of 2009!!!

cant imagine time goes so fast..

being with him for a year and two months..

he wasnt here this year..

last year we spend it together i guess...

so today i stayed at home..

doing nothing..

walking around..

sleep..

and he called...

i miss him sooo much...

i cant stop mentioning about that!!

cause i really do miss him..

the other day..

don, ash and i went for lunch..

i look at them..

it makes me miss him more..

i cant wait for monday..

for him to come back..

i miss u baby

8th day

2009-12-30T21:40:00.000+08:00

today morning got up early...

jus for orientation...

fetch don..

then go uni...

meet nick there pay fees..

then when to mph...

then walk around help out...

knew some new ppl there..

then some weirdo appear......

omg....

after she had my hp no...

she called me 4 times...

yes ppl 4 blardy times..

i didnt answer twice..

the third time i answered...

she asked where did i stay..

i was like wat da fug...

then i asked her y..

she say she wan to get fimilar wit my house..

so if she faced any prob she can come over..

i straight say errr elc subjects are easy i guess u can cope with it..

then she gave me another excuse that she wan to take my notes..

i told her WEIRD!!!! i dont give ppl my notes...

then she ask the job aspect of the course...

final examination...

and other stuff...

damn it y do i meet this kind of ppl...

then the fourth time she called...

i didnt want to answer..

so my mom help me to answer..

and say that im bz...

thank god she din call me already...

during lunch time i called him...

aww miss him soooo much...

then we joke around..

see who win..

hahaha sooo fun talked to him...

it makes me missed him more..

i cant wait for monday to see him again...

im so gonna pinch him...

hahaha...

i really miss u baby...

7th day

2009-12-29T21:29:00.000+08:00

yesterday night we have a slight small arguement...

that arguement is so powerful that i cried...

we talked about miko again...

which nearly kills me...

then i told him about how i feel...

he took a knife and stab straight to my heart...

i wasnt able to pull it bout...

so when i move it triggers the pain in my heart..

that is how i feel about the incident of miko..

after that, i think we understand each other more..

cause he told me how he felt about my character...

then today went for gathering...

we eat and talk from 11 something to 4 something...

hahahaha...

and we are the noisest EVERY where!!

so happy with them...

talk talk talk..

gossip gossip gossip...

FUN!!!

i miss u baby!~

6th day

2009-12-28T20:32:00.000+08:00

today my family members and i went for furniture shopping...

its been 6 years we used the furniture and the pvc torn out..

so when to rozel at first, then to fella design and lastly lorenzo...

we bought a sofa with L shape...

then we also bought a rocking chair sofa...

it can b recline...

im buzy with furniture shopping and he also bz went out with his mom..

so we didnt contact much....

i reached home...

and sms-ed him...

i didnt not receive any sms from him..

until 6 something...

from 4 something till 6 something...

i think of a lot of things...

y didnt i argue with him yesterday nite...

y cant i be more patient...

y cant i control my temper...

then he went out for basketball...

so until now i didnt receive any sms from him...

missing u..

5th day

2009-12-27T21:28:00.000+08:00

today was a lazy day for me...

woke up at 11 something..

then watched tv..

sms with him...

play games..

and he called...

i miss him..

especially when he hugs me..

wish u can come back now..

4th day without mr batman

2009-12-26T23:28:00.000+08:00

today i had a great day!!

cause its ASHLEY's bday....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAL!!

we went to klcc early in the morning...

walk around..

then we went to saisaki...

ash, celine and i reached there first...

then celine's fren join us later...

then we eat eat eat eat...

talk about him and don..

even tho, i was with the gals...

i still miss him...

then suddenly celine and i went off...

ash was alone and sad...

then all of a sudden....

from behind celine and i...

sang birthday song...

she was sooo happy until her face turn reddish..

hahaahahaha...

then we went to pavillion and walk walk....

mana tau heavy rain..

then we walk walk then lepak at the food court..

then ash and i left..

after that i send ash home...

then reach home my sis told me she bought something for me...

with is a pair of heels...

i was so happy..

then she asked me whether wanna accompany her to sogo or not..

then i say ok lets go before there are more ppl there....

then we went there and she bought her heels...

then we head to radioactive..

i bought a shirt, same goes to her...

then i also bought a pair of jeans...

wat a great day...

3rd day without mr batman

2009-12-25T22:00:00.000+08:00

today is christmas...

and it is also his mom's bday...

well we had an opportunity to talk on the phone this afternoon...

and i told him how i felt about my status in his life...

he did explain to me...

that he had to go back and he dont always accompany his mom..

well thats true...

i dont know wat got into me and i think like that...

mayb i missed him too much...

2nd day without mr batman

2009-12-24T21:50:00.000+08:00

today about 2 something in the morning..

i called him and talked to him...

i dont know y my tears are pouring...

i cried until i cant talk to him...

its really stupid for me to cry..

well this is not the first time he is going back..

but this is the first time he is going back for sooo long...

in the afternoon he called me...

and i felt that sometimes we need to b apart...

so that we wont argue much..

but we communicate much lesser..

lesser than we argue..

i just miss him..

can u bring him back to me??

1st day witout mr batman

2009-12-23T22:29:00.000+08:00

i miss u a lot

can u come back??

it's just the first day u went back to hometown

how am i gonna hold on until next week??

moody night

2009-12-22T00:24:00.000+08:00

i believe that in a day theres 2 parts will happen..

happiness and sadness...

well i knew that since i was primary...

someone told me that i dont remember who was it..

being a human, its not easy..

each and every seconds...

challenges are waiting for us...

a new born baby...

studies...

couple...

arguements

clashes..

accidents...

death..

those are stuff that we will face...

i was happy this morning...

me n my sistas have a great time...

then i had an arguement with him....

i hate to argue with him...

makes me feels bad...

yea im a control freak i guess...

i shudnt say anything....

then he wont say like that...

which triggers my bad mood...

its all my fault...

i shud keep quiet for sometime...

im sorry dear...

i always make u have a bad time...

im sorry dear...

im not a good gf...

im really sorry dear...

so this was today's story...

will it be better tomorrow???

or will it be worst???

primer of avatar

2009-12-16T00:03:00.000+08:00

today we watched avatar..

we got free tix..

thanks to CIMB...

we got 4 tix..

so me, both of my sis and my lovely aunt...

before the movie starts..

around 6 pm we went to pancake house...

in the food court area of pavillion...

i can say its not bad la the food...

after eat our maincourse..

we ordered dessert...

well this is our dessert...

waffle, ice cream, smarties and choco syrup...

its yummmy.....

after having out dessert..

we went to gsc...

so we waited for quite long...

then we tot of going to the ladies first...

after coming back from the ladies..

we saw the place was jammmmmmed..

there are A LOT of people...

i do mean A LOT!

then we have to queue..

just to put all of our phones at the deposit counter...

why??

cause they scared that we record the movie...

cause this was the primer...

means we were the very first ppl who watched the movie..

avatar will come out on the cinema on the 17th...

i rate this movie 8/10...

i quite love this movie.....

after that, we have to go out from the back door...

and back to the main entrance....

just to get back our phones....

after that we balik rumahhhh...

this was alllll the ppl queue-ing just to take their phones...

hahahha...

A LOT OF PEOPLE!!!!

bored

2009-12-13T21:27:00.000+08:00

really damn bored la this sem break...

i cant wait for sem reopen...

i feel like im going to be crazy..

everyday doing the same thing...

makes me feel like im in jail...

that day planned to sunway..

then was cancelled..

thanks to her..

haih i dun understand la..

she wants to control my life..

im 19 years old this year...

when u r 19, r u being control by ur sis??

omg i hate that feeling...

makes me dislike her...

i just want to do my own things...

y must u all control me???

dont go here...

dont go there...

dont wear this..

dont wear that...

omgggggg!!!!

i dunno...

2009-12-02T21:46:00.000+08:00

i dunno,

wats wrong with me these few things...

i dunno,

wats happening...

i dunno,

wat i wanted...

i dunno,

wats the purpose of my life...

i dunno,

y am i doing this to u...

i dunno,

y am i hurting u again and again...

wat happen to me??

2009-12-02T20:27:00.000+08:00

i dunno y just now i feel like breaking up...

mayb cause i know im not the one for him...

and im not good enough for him...

im sorry to disappoint u...

im sorry i cant b like MT.....

im sorry that u were stucked here with me...

im sorry for everything...

bored

2009-11-28T14:07:00.001+08:00

its been one month sem break for me...

its so bored...

i got nothing to do...

and dunno wat to do...

wanted to go out...

but dunno go where...

wanted to yumcha...

but dunno with who...

wat a boring sem break!!!!

lonely in kl

2009-11-26T22:47:00.000+08:00

currently im single in kl..

cause me the other half when back to penang...

he went back yesterday morning...

yesterday night we still sms...

but today we onli sms-ed few....

just now i sms-ed him and he say he is very messed up...

and will sms me later...

until 10 something im worried bout him..

so i sms-ed him..

and i ask are u ok?? is everything ok??

he onli answered one word...

my heart was fallen into pieces....

i dont know where he is...

or wat is he doing...

or being with who....

sometimes i hate that he went back to penang...

but wat can i say...

our relationship is getting far apart more compare to last time...

mayb i shudnt care much....

sometimes i really felt like breaking up...

im tired being like this...

im really tired...

yes i know that he do loves me...

but sometimes he show me that he dont care much about us...

so y am i dragging this relationship???

1 day trip in klang valley = )

2009-11-15T20:35:00.001+08:00

first of all, we went to aeroline terminal..

at opposite klcc..

to buy calvin's bus ticket back to penang...

then we head to imbi market...

to have out breakfast...

it was soooo the freaking packed...

then we went to times square....

when we reached we got no where to go...

so tot of watch movie...

the queue is soooooooooooooooooo long...

so tak jadi la...

then went to sing k!!!

sing, sing, sing, sing n sing

after half and hour....

ttteeekkkkk

no electric... we have to entertain ourselves...

hahaha.... no electricity for around 15 minutes i guess...

then after that we were informed to change the room...

after singing for 2 songs then we ask for other room..

cause the pa system SUCKS!!

then we went to the 3rd room....

then we makan... mana tau the chicken wing got prob....

so we have to order again....

after sing k, we went to search for calvin's clothes....

then we walk around...

he go test, test, test and test...

cant find the slack pants...

so we went to midvalley....

we reached we went to gurdian, to find his fren..

then to topman to find his other fren...

then to sub...

he tried a slack and taaaaddddaaaa....

it suits him very well...

so we balik....

we went to the car...

semangat nak balik rumah....

keluar.... the exit seems very different...

mana tau sampai flyover, we are at bangsar.....

so cari la jalan to go back....

then we went to the outer part of bangsar village....

then jalan2...

we found the way out....

then i go and ikut the traffic lights...

mana tau, we reached brickfields....

then we just lalu there....

and luckily we were back to midvalley ring road....

then send both of my daugthers back to my daughter's house....

then send calvin back to angkasa...

and i went home....

so this is our 1 day trip after the trip to sunway lagoon was cancelled!!

= P

working while studying

2009-11-09T21:52:00.000+08:00

i planned to work a part time job...

n i will start working on january...

but my family doesnt seems to allow me to work...

but they never understand y i wanted to work..

today my sis jus scolded me..

cause i explained y i dont wan to ask for money from her...

n i explained in a wrong way i think...

i told her that i dont like to ask money from ppl...

actually my sis is helping one of my uncle who is not working...

she is help him to pay for his car monthly...

she is very helpful in my family..

she did bought alot of things for me...

i tot of working then i can stop using her money..

and she can help my uncle more...

but the msg in mind wasnt send to her in a correct way...

i wanted to tell her this but i think i say it in a rude way...

which made her angry at me...

she said that the more i grow its harder for her to teach me...

the problem is she didnt know wat is the objective of me working...

the objective is i dont wan her to think of me anymore..

i wanted to b like her when she was young...

she come out n work...

be independent...

the second main objective is even though i apply for ptptn...

the money from them isnt enough for my whole course...

so i tot of working then save money...

then i can pay for it...

if its not enough from ptptn...

and lastly if i need to buy anything that i like...

i can use my own money to buy it...

too bad those three objective wont happen i guess...

i guess it will happen during internship le...

but i guess we wont have much pay from the company..

when she scold me just now...

i didnt explain to her this...

cause i dont wan to argue...

once we made someone who is mad...

watever u said it wont b correct...

so i guess i have to write this blog to tell wat im thinking now..

im sorry sis...

lurve

2009-10-31T22:31:00.000+08:00

ppl always ask that wat is LOVE??

i used to know the feeling of love....

but now a days,

i think the feeling have flown away...

do i love my bf??

i think i do...

i care about him...

but wat is the feeling of love again...

do i love my family??

of cause...

cause they are my family [duh!]

but again, what is the feeling of love???

do i love my frens??

yes i think..

cause i do care about them...

but do they??

for this holiday...

i've been alone for few days...

i dont feel the love from them anymore...

what should i do to feel the love again??

should insist to make sure to be loved???

or shud i stand on my own feet,

and forget about the feeling??

all of a sudden..

im moody...

is life pointless??

aimless??

or its useless??

im very confused...

what is the goal/aim of my life???

can i live without love??

can i b on my own???

family prob...

2009-10-30T23:34:00.000+08:00

cite gempak bulan ini!!!

family belah mama aku da berpecah belah...

sbb abg sedara aku ngan akak sedara aku couple...

pastu wat la isu-isu yg tak menyenangkan....

skunk buat semua org pening pale..

sbb mak belah abg sedara and mak belah akak sedara...

da x nak jadi kakak n adik...

sbb both of the younger ones da broke up....

sbenarnye that both mak is adik beradik...

so mmg pening la...

aduihai.....

bangun lambat =D

2009-10-27T13:24:00.000+08:00

its been a long time that i didnt wake up this late....

my mood is soooo good cause i slept about 11 hours.....

feel so calm after sleeping for so long...

yesterday plan with my beloved mindy....

going to sunway lagoon in nov...

hahahha i cant wait to go out with her again...

then told my boyfie, mana tau he also wanted to go...

before the holiday starts...

my sis planned that we are going to penang n ipoh...

because of her busy-ness...

cancel...

haih i tot of when we are there my bf also there ma...

so can bring us eat good food...

then yesterday night she saw wat i post on fb..

she said she will bring me to penang end of the year...

but i feel there is no point ler....

haih.. so disappointed...

but anyway...

im planning to go out of kl with ash amoi...

but dunno my parents let or not....

haihsssss..

sem break yg boring

2009-10-26T15:04:00.000+08:00

jus finish my final paper jus now...

waiting for my baby to sms me...

cause now he is in exam hall doing his exam...

finish finals holiday for 2 months..

wat should i do???

lepaking at home for 2 months???

waaa will get fatter...

need to finish ways to b slimmer...

start working in jan [hopefully]

cant wait to get first salary...

im gona kumpul kumpul then......

im gonna buy a CANON EOS d-SLR...

my dream cammy....

damn bored....

this coming holiday...

2 months wei...

nak buat apa???

hang out?? anyone???

sept

2009-10-15T23:59:00.000+08:00

end of short sem

finals is around the corner

holiday for 2 months

cant wait to hangout with my frens

*doing assignment*

2009-10-09T13:20:00.000+08:00

the moody-est day ever!

but i still have to put a smile on my face..

hang out with crazy fren!!!

2009-09-30T21:00:00.001+08:00

mynlee, mindy and i

celia and i

my best fren and i

thank u mindy for making it happen...

thank u for attending this mini gathering..

im glad that i show up n hang out with u guys...

im really happy!!!

im gonna miss u guys!!!

FRIENDS FOREVER!!!

muni u dont ffk next time.. or else we kill u!

i love u ppl!!

2009-09-24T23:35:00.000+08:00

iloveyou!!

to:

donnafoong

geraldinewong

gwenwong

calvincheoy

mindycheah

ashleyhew

thamyinpeng

chuayeeyin

tanchinee

celinetan

thosewholovemetoo!

paiseh

2009-09-22T00:42:00.000+08:00

the most pai seh-est moment ever!!!

malu onli!!!

adoy wat happen to me???

OMG!!!!

my lao poss

2009-09-21T21:50:00.000+08:00

im here to announce that im with ashley hew now..

yes ppl..

im les so wat??

i mean im bisexual so wat???

i will give u all my time...

except for sleeping....

my dear, i wan u to know sleeping is important to me....

so i hope u dont mind...

to my dearest 1st wife, mindy cheah....

hope u wont mind....

hehehehe...

ilovebothofyou!!!

*kisses n hugss*

unforgetable

2009-09-20T14:20:00.000+08:00

19 sept 09

the day that i will never forget

the day that i argued with him and nearly break up

am i doing the right thing??

sad

2009-09-19T19:00:00.000+08:00

today is the saddessstt day of my life....
blh x aku tinggal dri dunia ni??
knp dunia bnyk sgt masalah??
knp dunia ni munculnya penipuan??
ku rase nak mati

sick!!~

2009-09-12T14:00:00.000+08:00

after sending the previous post...
i was crying n being advice by my eldest sis....
and we were talking n talking until 2 something...
the next morning i didnt feel well so i skip class....
then the following day, get worst so my mom bought me to the clinic...
she is not feeling well too....
then the doctor gave me mc until friday...
on friday actually is my 1st year anniversary with him...
due to my sickness, i cant go out...
cant wait for 19/9 then we can celebrate our very 1st year anniversary...

being alone

2009-09-08T22:22:00.001+08:00

being alone is not that bad though
today im happy in the morning n sad in the evening
and im sad until now
wat happen?
mom ask me to take the ayam paha
actually i dont wan to cause im full
then mom say nvm la ur second sis eat chicken breast
then ok lo i eat
then half way eating my ayam paha n nasi lemak
mom when to wash her plate
then second sis quietly say to me, u always eat good things
now i know that from small until now
my sis is jealous of me
then i told mom about it
as usual my mom will say haiya nvm le, she always say like that
its not once or twice
my mom always on her side
im sick of it
really sick of it
once mom ask me to shut up when i was arguing with her
then once argue with her in aunty's house warming
mom scold me y i go argue with her same goes to my youngest aunt
everything also my fault
always also my fault
i was born in the wrong family
i was born in the time
i will not cry in this family anymore
i will not talk much in this family anymore
i will not love this family anymore!!!

crying in my heart

2009-09-08T19:44:00.001+08:00

how could u say like that to me??

fed up...

i wont forgive u forever!!

bestest day in deg!!! [rojak version]

2009-09-08T18:31:00.000+08:00

today habis class dlm kul 3.30pm...
then ada group discussion...
kawan i ckp die nak pi mcd n wat summary tu...
so i pon ingat nak tolong...
then i drive down my car frm that mountain....
then cari parking kat mcd...
round round tak ada parking...
pastu ada la mat negro ni...
die mintak i reverse n bagi i park....
i ingatkan die nak kacau ooooo...
mana tau die nak belah...
then masuk la ke mcd....
mule2 mcm tak biase la...
malu2 la konon...
after that, i beli fries n coke besar...
so makan makan n minum minum...
tak leh nak concentrate wat discussion...
course mate i ngan i pon ckp ckp...
pastu kiteorg gelak gelak...
sumpah mmg best....
da lame tak mcm tu....
biar pon kiteorg ada 3 org je kan...
i rase 1 mcd leh dgr kiteorg gelak....
hehehehhee....
i ni malaysian cine, kawan i dari china n kawan i tu malaysian cine gak tapi peranakan...
mmg mcm gila kiteorg gelak....
memang best ar!!!!

satu malaysia

2009-08-28T20:59:00.000+08:00

selamat hari merdeka semua

upcoming events

2009-08-27T22:57:00.000+08:00

start short sem
1 year anniversary with mr calvin =D
peng's birthday
final exam for short sem
1st nov holiday for 2 months
chinee's birthday

p.s. wat to do for my 1st anniversary??? ideas??

am i a lesbian??

2009-08-24T19:24:00.000+08:00

if u guys go n see my relationship status in fb...
u will see that im in relationship with mindy cheah...
mindy is my best fren....
soooo i hope u guys dont salah faham...
im not a lesbian...
im taken by mr calvin...
im straight ok???
wonders, if im a lesbian/tomboy, will i have a gf???
and i respect all the tomboys out there...
they have the right of choosing their partners
so dont look down on them...
they are jus like us....
they are also human being...
think about it!

hahaha my 3rd blog today

2009-08-24T00:51:00.000+08:00

yesterday night i slept at 1a.m. cause i was playing dragonica... lol.. kinda addicted to it... even tho my shoulder is so painful... but i didnt stop playing... then on sunday morning i woke up at 7a.m. cause i need to send mr calvin to lrt station... cause dia balik kg... hehehe... then i went back home n about 9 something went out to eat breakfast with family... then send mom home [mahjong section].... then me n both of my sis went to leisure mall.... we went to nike shop... we bought some clothes.... hehhe new clothes yay!!! then we head to starbucks.... yumyum rasberry blackcurrant.... then we walk walk around.... until 12 something... we head back home n rest... earlier i planned to sleep but........ mahjong section at home.... for those who know how is the sound of the mahjong, imagine how can i sleep leh... then plan to play dragonica... suddenly 2nd sis say that she have transformer 1.... so i watched it... actually, i fast forward pretty much... mayb half of the movie??? haahahah.... so bored la they talk talk talk.. those grandfather grandmother story.... so i fast forward until sam meets bumblebee and other autobots.... how everything started... n try to link to the 2nd transformer... when i finish watching transformers, i play dragonica.... hahahahahahha.... until jus now about 8 something?? hahahahha crazy rite?? for dinner i had chezzy chickaroni... yum yum!!! its yummy.. then i online until now... and im not sleepy yet... i wonders wat happen to me.... siao de i think =)
[siao = gilaa]

.

2009-08-23T23:51:00.000+08:00

tried my best to treat everyone the same
been fooled for few times
sis n 3 frens
2 high school frens
1 uni fren

2 high school frens
15 years old n 17 years old
fren with her who is a discipline prob student
gaining experiences when with her
did some stupid things
my 1st ex started with me

17 years old time
close fren lied to me [wadafuck]
damn fucking tumour in her brain
those damn fucking lies
doesnt deserve to b my close fren
doesnt deserve to b my fren either
damn pissed
but my class teacher asked me to apologize to her
damn.. its not even my fucking mistake
after that i didnt care much

uni....
have a close fren
quite disappointed
dont give a damn on the assignments
its hard for me to stand in the middle
gave up
i chose to leave her

everytime when i treat a person wit a better treatment than others, do they even care?? best example is my 2nd sis... i drive her here n there but she still scolds me, irritates me and always make me in trouble.... can u imagine every time i argued with her, my mom ask me to shut up... as if its my fault... same goes to my aunties.... am i that bad?? always acting in front of everyone.... wat a bitch..... i cant stand anymore..... did they even think of my feeling???? i dont give a damn to them anymore esp. u..... sorry shera, but u hurts me tooo much..... i still can feel the pain in me... do u even care?? those who are reading now, i dont even care if u want to tell her... this is the truth... when i need u guys where the fuck are u??? i really dont give a damn anymore... to my 2nd sis, i got no choice... cause u are my sis... i wont keep quiet like last time anymore... even tho u wanted to say that i dont have manners or dunno how to treat u as my sis cause u are 10 years older than me.... bullshit....

to those who treat me very well but i didnt give a damn.... im really sorry.... im such a fucker that i didnt realise wat have u did for me... especially u.... thank u so much..... for being a good fren to me... since form 4... thanks for ur advice... thanks for everything... hope u forgive me wat i have done.... i will try to make it right....

i didnt realise that i have neglected some of frens who really care about me..... until i felt totally alone the other day.... esp. mindy, celine, yee yin, chin ee n ash amoi.... thanks u guys... im feel really grateful knowing u guys and having u guys as my frens.... close frens... no no my best
frens....

THANK U VERY VERY VERY MUCH!!!!

sem break

2009-08-23T22:28:00.000+08:00

sem break da mule
tak tau nak wat pe
pakwe kat umah
aku kat sini
kekdg ade class best gak
tapi kekdg pening
aku rindu kengkawan aku
skola rendah, menengah and uni
aku nak korg tau yg aku sayangkan korg
rindu zaman dlu kite bersama
kite gelak sesama
kite nangis sesama
kite gadoh sesama hehe
mmg best
kalo leh, aku nak mcm dlu
kengkawan semuanya gile2
bkn gile ape
but sporting n happening
sumpah korg mmg best!!!!
love u all n misz u guys so much!!!!!!!!!!!
thank u for coming into my life!!!!

to: dak2 5 dinamik 07, kengkawan yg penah jadi musuh dlu, kengkawan yg da lame tak ckp, kengkawan yg da lupekan aku, kengkawan yg tak penah suke aku, kengkawan kat ucsi n kengkawan yg kenal aku....

last paper for 1st year 1st sem

2009-08-20T20:02:00.000+08:00

yes!!!! tomorrow is the last paper for my 1st sem in deg

these few days felt so stressed up!!!!

cause thanks to ptptn.......

ptptn state that if we fail any subject...

then they wont inject money again...

im so damn stressed up...

im scared i cant do it...

today's bilingualism paper was kinda hard...

thanks to JEAN....

cause before exam she was giving us wat she have learn...

that smart girl....

she can memorize everything and bam!!!

she is good....

no more exam...

no more stresssssssss

lepak the whole day....

or mayb shoppin!!!!

...

2009-08-18T22:06:00.000+08:00

argue again

im tired of arguing

im sad n heartbreaking

when this will stop once and for all??

alone

2009-08-09T22:53:00.000+08:00

finals on the way

feel alone now

frens were diff major

misses those times

we share our prob, n spend time together

m thinking, will that moment back again??

m thinking, what r they doing now...

m thinking, are they happy....

m thinking, if they remember about me....

a lot of things had changed..

all of us talk lesser and lesser

is there really forever friends??

or best friends forever???

....

tranformers n shopping again!!!~

2009-08-01T21:54:00.000+08:00

yesterday i watched a very nice movie with my man in mv..

yea ppl im saying about TRANSFORMERS 2!!~ revenge of the FALLEN...

for those who havent watch...

cerita ini memang best!!!~

very the best i watched it twice...

yes!! TWICE!!!~

today drove to pavillion with my sista...

the sound system in pavillion is much more better....

even tho i sat next to the speaker in mid valley...

went to roxy and bought a jeans!!!~

the original price is rm 359!!~

omg so expensive rite???

but im lucky enough cause theres sales!!!~~

guess how many percent???

10%?? 20%?? mayb 40%??

no people its 50%!!!~

yes 50 percent!!!

i got another extra 10% discount off!!~

cause im a member!!~

so those who wanted to buy jeans plz try to go n find in roxy..

this is a very great deal...

my sistaz bought quite a lot of things...

nail polish...

tshirts from polo [ralph lauren]...

roxy jeans...

roxy shirt...

heels...

then about 5 something we reached home...

my 1st sis said that she want to go OUG...

so me, mom n my 1st sis head to OUG...

mom have to find tshirt for dad...

when reach parkson, 1st thing we go to man's dept...

then near the man's dept...

theres this oreef outlet...

theres new product at the outlet...

sis n i went to try...

but its not nice for meeeeee....

cause tooo big...

then i took another shirt and try..

nice!!! ngam ngam....

then mom tried a bermuda pants too...

she liked it...

so at OUG we bought...

3 tshirt for dad..

2 shirts for sis

1 bermuda pants

1 tshirt for me...

then we went to 1 station...

we went for yumcha...

after yumcha went home...

everyone bought new things today!!~

i think im a shopaholic!!~ =D

2009-07-19T12:26:00.000+08:00

got new bag [gucci]
got new laptop [compaq]
got new handphone [5800 nokia]

THANKS SIS!!~ I WILL TAKE GOOD CARE OF THEM AND THANK U VERY VERY MUCH I WILL PAY U BACK IN THE FUTURE BY TAKING CARE OF UR CHILD LIKE U TAKE CARE OF ME!!! I WILL NEVER FORGOT WAT U BOUGHT AND DID FOR ME!!!!

THANK U!!!~

sayang, i sangat stress ler!!~

2009-07-15T22:10:00.000+08:00

i tak tahu kenapa tetiba i nak cakap dalam BM.

maybe sebab banyak assignments due date kot.

minggu ni memang stress!!~

giler babi punya style!!~

ari ini, sakit kepala dari tengah hari sampai sekarang.

penat sangat!~

sebab kena hantar 2 assignments and upcoming CHARITY CONCERT!!~

kita orang macam da nak mati risau pasal charity concert.

harap-harap korang support kiter orang.

dalam kul 6 lebih gi jemput si sayang.

pastu dia cakap bagi dia 5 minit.

i tunggu-tunggu tak ada orang keluar.

i gi bank amik duit.

da pokai leh wat macam mana??

then pi balik kat kereta and tunggu agi.

i pun naik bengang.

da la penat, stress and sakit kepala pastu kena tunggu si sayang pulak.

dia naik kereta, dia cakap, " sayang jom kita pergi minum."

i pun cakap la, " kenapa?? sayang tadi cakap nak pergi swimming."

dia cakap, "kengkawan i tak nak pergi da."

i dengar dia cakap macam tu, i terus naik bengang.

i bawak kereta i laju-laju. dia pon takut.

pastu i antar dia balik kat TOP GEAR.

pastu i balik.

pastu dia mintak maaf and stuff.

after awhile, i pon maafkan dia.

sekarang, i rindu sesangat kat si sayang.

saya cintakan awak, si sayang. =P

sorry dear!!~

2009-07-12T00:02:00.000+08:00

yesterday while shopping at mv,

my dearest called me,

asking for help for the competition thingy,

i was curious,

and straight ask him why dont u ask ur fren's gf,

then he said ok lo bye,

he put down the phone,

and straight i felt guilty,

can u imagine i said that to him,

im so cruel to him,

sms-ed him and ask for apology,

he said its ok i will do it myself,

the whole night he treated me very cold,

im sad and i felt very very bad,

so before i slept,

i cried,

i was hugging my pillow and i cried,

i imagine that i was hugging him,

i miss him so much but i said that to him,

and i felt asleep.

the next day,

went to angkasa for meeting,

sms-ed him,

everything seems ok,

suddenly i dont get reply from him,

i tried to called,

couldn't reach him,

im so worry,

im worried something bad happen to him,

for few hours i tried to called and sms-ed him,

no reply at all,

around 7 something only he sms-ed me.

the moment he left me alone the other night,

i felt that i can't loose him,

that is why the next day,

im so worried bout him.

dear,

im sorry wat i've said,

im sorry wat i've done,

im sorry being cruel to u,

im sorry for everything.

iloveu

babi panggang!!~

2009-07-11T00:13:00.000+08:00

fetch celine at ucsi around 1.10pm
go to her house
find paper
2.20pm went back fetch sis
sis request i drive to mv
drove near to mv got bang by a babi panggang
i cant go out from the road cause theres 1 car coming
sis say got car
so i brake
then sis say becareful of the motor
i look at my mirror
and BANG!!!~ the babi panggang bang at my baby [my precious car]
the babi panggang drove to the side of my car
and look at me
then drove off
now my baby got "celah" at the bumper
my skriting fell offf
i have to stop at the side to see my baby's butt
so sakit hati my baby got bang
this is my very first accident
now still got a bit scared
so DAMN YOU BABI PANGGANG!!!!~
reach mv
shop with my sis
she bought 2 pairs of aldo heels
we bought nail polish rm 5 each bottles [we bought 4]
we bought mask rm 6 1 piece [we bought 6]
we bought nail polish remover
i bought earrings
she bought dvd-r [mahal giler] and pens
she bought a shirt from zara
she bought lotions for her beautiful skin
and we had dinner at CHILIS [yumyum] with katie, ronnie and quienne
around 10pm we left balik rumah
now blogging
resting and checking emails too

theres sadness and happyness in a day... have a good time with them..... very hard to stablize my emotion.... miss my dearest... argued earlier... im really sorry.. never care about u... sorry dear...

happy birthday my dear!!~ [040709]

2009-07-05T18:25:00.000+08:00

030709 [friday]

went to have lunch with 24655 geng
went to octopus's house
wait for bad daughter
bad daughter come with bamboo
nearly burn octopus's hair with the lighter [LOL]
sing birthday song
cut cake
eat cake
play cream on the cake!!!!~ [fun]
1st to kena is bad daughter
2nd to kena is birthday boy
3rd to kena is me
4th to kena is bamboo
5th to kena is fish
last but not least [she quietly put cream on others only] OCTOPUS!!~
really had fun
shirley came
make sushi!!!~ [yummmmmyyy]
1st cook the rice
2nd cut all the stuff u wan to put in
3rd mix the rice with vinegar, salt n sugar
4th prepare to roll sushi
5th roll, roll, roll
6th cut, cut, cut
7th MAKAN TIME!!!!~~
then we clean up and balik rumah

a very tiring day!!~ run here n there, push here push there but it was fun!!

040709 [saturday]

birthday boy's exact birthday
went to uni around 8a.m. [ptptn]
fish came no longer after that
octopus came around 8.30a.m.
line up for the clarification of the ptptn documents
around 10 something done with clarification
but octopus n fish still lining up
wait for them
sms birthday boy
gave birthday boy pressies [perfume]
about 11.30a.m. birthday boy and i went to mv
wanted to watch transformer but very very very long q
went to eat japanese food [our first date's restaurant]
walk walk walk
both of us felt sleepy
went back home around 1 something

even tho its a short time with birthday boy, im glad i spent time with him on his birthday ain't like last year. he need to celebrate his birthday by himself.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR!!~

the climb

2009-07-02T20:13:00.000+08:00

I can almost see it.

That dream I'm dreaming, but

There's a voice inside my head saying

You'll never reach it

Every step I'm takin'

Every move I make

Feels lost with no direction,

My faith is shakin'

But I gotta keep tryin'

Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side

It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing

The chances I'm taking

Sometimes might knock me down, but

No I'm not breaking

I may not know it, but

These are the moments that

I'm gonna remember most

I've just gotta keep goin', and

I gotta be strong

Just keep pushing on, but

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side

It's the climb

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side

It's the climb

Keep on movin'

Keep climbin'

Keep faith baby

It's all about, it's all about

The climb

Keep the faith, keep your faith, woah

i think this song its kinda related to my life...

so this is the 1st song on my play list

ENJOY!!~

alone for 1 hour!!~

2009-06-30T22:19:00.000+08:00

omg!!! i really hate being alone!!!

being alone sucks man!!! SUCKS!!! i really mean it!!

i've finished class at 4p.m. need to wait for 1 hour for meeting..

this is wat i did being alone!!~ damn sad

1. move my car from mountain to parking lot

2. buy ham cheese toast

3. take my bag n refill my water bottle

4. planning to enter c312 [mana tau got class]

5. walking around ALONE!!! at 3rd floorr

6. went to ground floor buy a can drink

7. waited for someone bump into me n then can teman me

and it's still havent 5p.m.!!!!~~~

im so sad being alone!!~

actually calvin got sms me at 4.30p.m.

waited waited and waited

4.40p.m. he called and said, "i need to discuss something

later finish i come find u ok?"

so i waited for him...

waited waited waited waited

its 4.50p.m. so i decide to go to c312 n waited againnnn

at last i saw a human standing outside of the room

its conrad!!!!~~~

omg!!! conrad save me!!!!

10 minutes chit chatting with him

and he really really save me

thanks conrad!!!

p.s. dont believe me?? try it urself being alone for 1 blardy hour its not easy!!~

so damn sleepy wei!!!

2009-06-25T16:24:00.000+08:00

yesterday took nap
6pm until 7pm
wake up tot of studying
too blur cant study
sleep at 10pm wake up at 6.15am
jus for study
but im too sleepy
go uni
went library
to studyy but feel sleepy
damn i wasted my time in library feeling sleepy
8 something went to class
i gave up on studying
ask jean about intrasentential n intersentential
she explain everything she learn
and then i explain to the other classmates
i tot i will flung my bilingualism midterm
exam time i open essay part
im glad i ask jean about those stuff
at least i wont get 0 for my bilingual
tot of ponteng phonetic class
but im such a good gal
i rather being sleepy than skip class [kononnya la]
went to class 1 hour class onli
thank god today's class finish early
then went home n relax
wash my shoes
check emails
bf sms
his disappointed n sad
cause of basketball thingy
worried bout him but most weirdest thing is when i reach home i dont feel like sleeping
yes ppl i know im weird... =D

stress!!

2009-06-23T21:05:00.000+08:00

assignments
mid terms
due dates of assignments
stress
really need a vacation
really need him
need him to support me
i dont think i can stand anymore

DEGREE YEAR ITS NOT EASY TO HANDLE!!!!

outing!!

2009-06-14T21:46:00.000+08:00

fetch my dearest around 9 something
go mid valley
watch movie
termination salvation
walk around
went to buy fren's bday pressie
roxy n girls
used rm 80 plus
sad cause going to pokai
happy cause got to b with him
=)

about me

2009-06-13T00:15:00.000+08:00

actually this should be my assignment.. hehe

i was born in 16 april 1990 n born to the youngest in the family. to be the youngest its not always get pampered by mom or dad. but i admit that when i was young my dad will gave me wat i want. for example a train which with those lanes and the stuff it was really really cool. i dont really remember anything when i was young. when im growing up around 6 to 7 years old, my sisters are the ones who care about me. my mom n dad are always busy working. i got 2 elder sis, where my 2nd sis is older than me 10 years. i remembered that since im young until now, i cant stand with my 2nd sis's character because she is too bossy and unrespectful to my mom. she always boss around at home, she will say dont do this dont do that or dont wear that u look fat on that why dont u wear this. my 1st sis n i are sick of her. why? cause she like to boss around and she nags!! she is worst than my mother. my 2nd sis always thinks that in this family no one loves her. but she never thinks that our mom always care about her much more than us. sometimes i felt that she is lucky cause my mom cares about her more compare to me the youngest daughter of hers. unfortunately, i have to think of my mom also cause she is not young anymore, what is the point of getting jealous of my 2nd sis? the one who suffer is my mom. i love my mom very much and i dont wan her to suffer thats why i will try to protect her as much as i could. this is part of my life until im 18. im a teenager now, life is busy; school, family, friends and my bf. compare to last time, now is more busy. i need to rush to class and assignments. because of my busy life i didnt care much about my family. i should be more caring about the one who gave birth to me and brought me up until now. thank u mom. we onli can live for once in this world, we need to learn to appreciate wat we have now and complain less. i wan to say that i thanks to my family, my boyfren and my friends cause appearing in my life =)

random

2009-06-06T18:42:00.000+08:00

assignments
presentations
he's not here
damn it
i felt sad, bored, n damn lonely
im tired
tot of giving up everything
im jus tooo tired
i just wan to have fun
i want to go for holiday
i want to get out from this place
just get me out of here
damn deg year
its so damn f stressed
dum dum di dum!!~

nia ma

2009-06-04T21:27:00.000+08:00

yes people...
i just say a bad word...
i have my limit towards u...
damn u...
fuck u...
shit u...
NIA MA!!!!!
u didnt help out for assignment ok i shaddap....
not for 1 assignment onli o....
accounts, writing, econs, cs, qm, oa, and film n arts....
fine i jus shaddap...
but wat u did today its really pissed me off...
who the hell u are?? u r under me ok?? UNDER!!
so u need to go thru me...
dont ever ask me to send things to u...
u should send things to me...
wat u do really pissed me off... when u pissed me off this is wat u get.. DAMN U!