something called life

i never regret having each and every ex-s and my current bf in my life....
even though my ex-s were not in the same race with me...
but im happy with them...
they care about me....
always be there for me....
because all i need in my life is something that known as LOVE..
i always thinks that my mom side on my 2nd sis...
until today i still do think so...
coz each and every time my sis and i argued..
i am sure mom never scold her...
even tho its NOT my fault..
usually i will cry in my room after each and every arguement with her...
i know its stupid crying alone...
for me its kinda normal or immune already...
i always think that mom dont love me...
my family dont need me in their life...
no one needs me....
until i grew older and older....
i see things differently...
and i saw that actually my mom needs me there for her...
sometimes both of my sis never understands about her...
except me....
sometimes both of my sis scold her.......
except me...
i was there to understand her and be there for her...
and today....
my 2nd sis just made me pissed with her..
i am sooooo pissed..
but i prefer to keep quiet...
there is no point to argue when its her fault...
whats the point of telling my 1st sis...
after telling her all i get is i will be glad cause im sure my 2nd sis will get scolded...
i think and think again...
WHAT IS THE WHOLE MAIN POINT??
i wont be happier...
she wont change her character....
and everything after today it will remain the same again...
no one will understand how i feel about my family...
except my ex-s and my bf...
that is y i never regret being with them..
most of all im happy with c.a.l.v.i.n....
thankz for understanding my feelings and loving me....