2009

its the year 2009!!!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!!!
we should forget each and everything that happen in 2008...
happy stuff or sad stuff we forget about it and think ahead!!!!
hope u guys happy always for the year 2009!!!!!
gonna grow 1 year older....
the last year in the 10's...
after that im gonna be in my 20's...
so APPRECIATE IT to those who are in the same age with me!!!!
hope each and everyone will have a better year....
healthier, happier, prettier, and handsomer....
hope for those who are in a relationship have a better year with their bf/gf.....
hope my bf n i have a splendied year!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!

high school gathering

since the day i left high school...
my friends and i were not that close anymore....
we dont use to hang out like in high school...
we wont sms each other often....
we wont talk much....
for few months we had been lost contact...
i tried to make a class gathering but there were only 7 people from the class attended the gathering...
i as the monitor of the class...
i felt very disappointed with the whole class...
cause all of them agrees to attend each and every gathering that i make....
in the middle of 2008..
i made the 2nd gathering for the class...
and there are onli 7 of them...
the 1st gathering its onli half of them which are 15 of them..
so there will be lesser and lesser people will attend the class gathering...
i felt there is no more point to make any class gathering...
waste my energy, my money and my time to think the venue, date and place...
after that i have to ask each and everyone's opinion about everything..
after that i have to recomfirm how many of them will go..
after the whole gathering was held...
everyone will start complaining..
why choose that place??
why everytime also go there??
why so early???
why so far??
why so late??
WTH im also a normal person...
i have to handle the gathering alone...
did i mention ALONE??
after everything i did to the class...
did anyone appreciate it??
oh yea the school did cause they give me a certificate for it!!!
after all that incident...
i have made up my mind to STOP making up any gathering...
wat for treat them so good...
no need to meet up BETTER...
no need to waste time, money and energy...
i dont do stuff for people who dont appreciate...

p.s. : i wont do anything to those who dont appreciate it and just know how to comment.. PLZ IM NOT UR SLAVE!

something called life

i never regret having each and every ex-s and my current bf in my life....
even though my ex-s were not in the same race with me...
but im happy with them...
they care about me....
always be there for me....
because all i need in my life is something that known as LOVE..
i always thinks that my mom side on my 2nd sis...
until today i still do think so...
coz each and every time my sis and i argued..
i am sure mom never scold her...
even tho its NOT my fault..
usually i will cry in my room after each and every arguement with her...
i know its stupid crying alone...
for me its kinda normal or immune already...
i always think that mom dont love me...
my family dont need me in their life...
no one needs me....
until i grew older and older....
i see things differently...
and i saw that actually my mom needs me there for her...
sometimes both of my sis never understands about her...
except me....
sometimes both of my sis scold her.......
except me...
i was there to understand her and be there for her...
and today....
my 2nd sis just made me pissed with her..
i am sooooo pissed..
but i prefer to keep quiet...
there is no point to argue when its her fault...
whats the point of telling my 1st sis...
after telling her all i get is i will be glad cause im sure my 2nd sis will get scolded...
i think and think again...
WHAT IS THE WHOLE MAIN POINT??
i wont be happier...
she wont change her character....
and everything after today it will remain the same again...
no one will understand how i feel about my family...
except my ex-s and my bf...
that is y i never regret being with them..
most of all im happy with c.a.l.v.i.n....
thankz for understanding my feelings and loving me....