you were my friend and now who you are to me??

i met mindy in high school...
she was my friend and now she is my best friend..

i met celine during orientation...
she was my friend and now she is my mei mei...

i met calvin in malaysian studies class...
he was my friend and now he is my bf...

i met peng peng in malaysian studies class...
she was my friend and now she is my daughter...

i met chin ee in psycho class...
she was my friend and now she is my a*ssss..

i met yee yin in psycho class...
she was my friend and now she is my dear....

i met carina and ivy in malaysian studies class...
they were my friend and now who they are to me???

each and every friendship i made...
i never hope there will b an end...
i cherish each and every one of them....
i wish i will have a long friendship with them...
i never hope to stop any friendship...
i respect who they are...
they respect who am i but its not enough for me...
they need to respect others especially my friends...
sorry, if u think im weird then jus dont care bout me cause thats wat i am...

p.s. if anyone get offence by wat i said.. im sorry... im really really sorry

9 reasons people cheat

this is facts from yahoo homepage..
check it out y people cheat...

1. Bored
I'd say this is the most common reason that people cheat.It's tough to keep that edge throughout a relationship. Things start off grand and then level off and then you both realize that it's still real life. When you meet someone else, that inaugural excitement of a new relationship kicks back in.

2. Dependence
At first glance, cheating seems like independent behavior. It could be interpreted as doing what you want, when you want. But I would argue that cheating is a dependent behavior. A cheater is dependent because they are not strong enough to break up with their significant other in order to get with the new person.

3. Confusion
Sometimes life or a particular situation can get to you. When the perfect storm of confusion is going on in your head, you make mistakes.

4. Because They Let You
If any girl ever cheated on me, I'd break up with her immediately. Forgiving a cheater is putting up with it, and starts a vicious cycle. That person who cheated may lose respect for you and might continue to cheat-because they know they can get away with it, because you'll continue to take them back.

5. Nurturing
If someone is mistreating you, then your first instinct is to get away from him or her. But sometimes it's not that simple-maybe you are raising kids together. If you feel trapped in a bad relationship, it's only natural that you will run to the open arms of a person who treats you well.

6. Revenge
This is quite simple- an eye for an eye. Cheat on them if they cheat on you. If they continuously hurt you or abuse you in some way, you do it to get them back.

7. Confirmation of Attractiveness
Sometimes when you're in a long relationship, or if your significant other is taking you for granted, you begin to wonder if you're still attractive. Perhaps, because you were out on the dating circuit, you felt more attractive when you were single. If you have an affair, you've proven that a new person can be attracted to you.

8. The Thrill
Some people just enjoy the thrill of cheating: running around secretly, risking getting caught, and creating thrilling moments with a forbidden romance.

9. They Don't Consider It Cheating, Even Though You Might
Relationships have that grey area, usually right before you become exclusive. He thinks date #4 is when you're "together," and you think date #2 is when you're "together." If you haven't talked about exclusivity, someone may think they are well within their rights to see other people, even though the other person in the relationship may not.

dum dum di dum....

it was 10.18 in the morning....
ponteng cs class we cabut about 8.20 am...
celine and i cant stand the boringness of the class....
and once again we skip our cs!!!
then i went to meet calvin at block b...
the last time i meet him before he going back to penang...
around 9 am i went up to find celine....
she was playing msn and then she was writting her blog...
because of tooooo sleepy...
i slept in the comp lab for 30-40 minutes...
then i woke up and on the computer....
and here i am....
writing my blog....
and i found out that she is kinda emo....
and after i read her blog it is confirm that she is emo...
i dont wan her to be emo cause of that guy...
all i hope is she will be happy...
am i stopping her to have happiness?
i have happiness with calvin y am i stopping her from having it?
am i too selfish or tooooo protective???
i jus dont want my mei mei to be sad anymore...
i hope she will be fine...
and if she really wants the happiness...
i will let her to have it and be happy..
LIVE LONG THE SISTA HOOD!!

p.s. mei mei if theres any problem i will try to help u and dont forget about ur kor kor and wasabi also... SO BE HAPPY O TAUHU MUI!!

6 months

6 months with u...
im glad that i said yes to u on the 11th of sept and i didnt regret about it...
i still remember those days when u r bullying me...
and now im with u for 6 long months..
theres arguement, sadness and happyness that happen in these 6 months..
i know how it feel when someone appreciates u...
i know how to change my mistakes...
i can feel the love in this world...
all of this happen after when we were together...
i still remember the day i brought u to meet my mom....
u r nervous and kinda shaky i think...
and i still remember the day that my mom cried when i told her i have u...
and everytime i think again about that day, theres tear in my eyes....
thankz for having guts to confess to me...
thankz for loving me...
thankz for caring me...
thankz for the support...
thankz for the time u spend with me...
thankz for making me happy each and every day...
thankz for the bottle of starzz, the pendant and the ring..
thankz for each and everything u did to me...

THANK YOU, CALVIN!!~

words that hurt

sometimes we might said something that hurt others..
sometimes others might said something that hurt us...

sometimes we just keep quiet cause those words hurts..
sometimes those words hurts cause we jus keep quiet...

sometimes we didnt think of others feeling b4 we say those words out..
sometimes others didnt think of our feeling b4 they say those words out..

sometimes we take those words as a joke...
sometimes we take those words as a serious matter...

sometimes its hard for us to tell that it hurts...
sometimes its hard for others to tell that it hurts..

sometimes we will apologize and sometimes we wont...
sometimes they will apologize and sometimes they wont...

sometimes we will be emo after hearing it...
sometimes others will be emo after hearing it...

sometimes we need to think b4 we talk so that we wont hurt anyone around us...
sometimes others need to think b4 they talk so that they wont hurt anyone around them...

p.s. if u dont wan to get hurt by anyone around u plz do think of the words b4 it come out from ur mouth.. its not easy to forget those words that hurts.. to all of my frens or anyone that know me, im sorry if i hurt your feelings... im really really SORRY hope u guys can forgive me...

im sorry

i think i need to apologize to anyone that i hurted them b4...
im really sorry with wat ive done...
and i hope all of you forgive me...
especially to her...
u r a good fren to me...
im sorry that i put u into our problem..
i shouldnt do that...
i promise it wont happen again...
and to him..
its not onli ur fault...
its my fault getting jealous about this...
i shouldnt compare myself with her...
im really really really sorry...
hope u guys will forgive me and stay around with me...
i need u guys... without u guys i will be very lonely...
im sorry..

because of jealousy

today i cried again...
sorry ah lui i just cant control my feelings...
but today i cried in my bathroom...
i controlled my feelings when im in uni...
its hard to control it...
onli 1 way to control it..
thats by laughing...
i laugh as loud as i could...
to forget my sadness...
i was sad cause i just argued with him...
because of my jealousy...
im jealous cause we got nothing to talk to each other...
but with others, he talk a lot...
after lunch he was walking with my fren and talking....
he was saying, "can i dont go to class?"
he talked to me like that without calling my name....
i just kept quiet and continue my walking....
suddenly he said, "hello?!"
then i knew he was talking to me and i shouted, "none of my business!!!!!"
he came to me and ask why...
and i said nothing...
then we all continue our walking to class...
i was pissed....
then i walk as fast as i could then he pull my bag...
then i said, "stop pulling my bag!"
then he ask me y again...
i took back my bottle cause he was holding it b4 that...
and i continue my walking...
i walk as fast as i could...
but theres a lot of ppl in block b...
then i heard him saying, "its hard to b a human"
then theres tears in my eyes...
i hold it then he was chasing me....
he talked to me...
i dont answered him....
until 2nd level he stop and when to his class..
then i went to audi to attend my class...
after awhile being bored...
i asked my twin whether she wan to buy anything or not...
i saw him walking to the hostel...
i didnt call him...
i pretend that i didnt saw him...
i buy rm 1 chewing gums at the aunty's shop...
then when my twin was waiting for the copy of econs note...
i went to sit in front of the book shop...
and then i saw him again....
walking pass in front of me....
i was thinking is it over between us...
is it he will have a better life without me...
is it he is more suitable with her...
is it god said its time for us to be apart.....
he is a good guy...
a good bf...
a good son...
im not a good girl....
not a good gf...
not a good daughter....
she is a good girl....
a better gf for him...
a good daughter....
few weeks ago he ask me to give 10 reasons y i said she is better than me....
and now im gonna stated it here....

1. she is a polite girl...
2. she is a very good friend...
3. she know how to talk mandrin...
4. it was my obstacle for me being close with them cause i dont know how to speak mandrin..
5. she courage him to read books...
6. when he was sad, she know how to cheer him up...
7. she know how to comfort her frens...
8. she know how talk to him when he is sad...
9. she is not rough as me....
10. i think she is better than me.....