being alone

being alone is not that bad though
today im happy in the morning n sad in the evening
and im sad until now
wat happen?
mom ask me to take the ayam paha
actually i dont wan to cause im full
then mom say nvm la ur second sis eat chicken breast
then ok lo i eat
then half way eating my ayam paha n nasi lemak
mom when to wash her plate
then second sis quietly say to me, u always eat good things
now i know that from small until now
my sis is jealous of me
then i told mom about it
as usual my mom will say haiya nvm le, she always say like that
its not once or twice
my mom always on her side
im sick of it
really sick of it
once mom ask me to shut up when i was arguing with her
then once argue with her in aunty's house warming
mom scold me y i go argue with her same goes to my youngest aunt
everything also my fault
always also my fault
i was born in the wrong family
i was born in the time
i will not cry in this family anymore
i will not talk much in this family anymore
i will not love this family anymore!!!