working while studying

i planned to work a part time job...

n i will start working on january...

but my family doesnt seems to allow me to work...

but they never understand y i wanted to work..

today my sis jus scolded me..

cause i explained y i dont wan to ask for money from her...

n i explained in a wrong way i think...

i told her that i dont like to ask money from ppl...

actually my sis is helping one of my uncle who is not working...

she is help him to pay for his car monthly...

she is very helpful in my family..

she did bought alot of things for me...

i tot of working then i can stop using her money..

and she can help my uncle more...

but the msg in mind wasnt send to her in a correct way...

i wanted to tell her this but i think i say it in a rude way...

which made her angry at me...

she said that the more i grow its harder for her to teach me...

the problem is she didnt know wat is the objective of me working...

the objective is i dont wan her to think of me anymore..

i wanted to b like her when she was young...

she come out n work...

be independent...

the second main objective is even though i apply for ptptn...

the money from them isnt enough for my whole course...

so i tot of working then save money...

then i can pay for it...

if its not enough from ptptn...

and lastly if i need to buy anything that i like...

i can use my own money to buy it...

too bad those three objective wont happen i guess...

i guess it will happen during internship le...

but i guess we wont have much pay from the company..

when she scold me just now...

i didnt explain to her this...

cause i dont wan to argue...

once we made someone who is mad...

watever u said it wont b correct...

so i guess i have to write this blog to tell wat im thinking now..

im sorry sis...